whattodo...whattodo

Let me just start with the information that I have more Guru today than I can ever confess to anybody.
This heat is really terrible. I thought I would happily move to a hot country, like Spain, Cuba, Jamaica, Mexico (daydreaming for some minutes)...but i'm not sure anymore because I cannot do anything in this weather. I went to the library with my cousin today 9(!) in the morning and in that early hour it was already unbearably hot, and it is still although it's 10 pm. I'm thinking about going out wearing only my bikinis :)
But if everything goes well I'm going to our beautiful sea, Balaton on Thursday or on Friday. I can't wait for it...lying on the beach all day, swimming, sunbathing, coming home with the skincolour of a latin chica :) I've been watching a fabolous mexican series lately so my spanish is improving rapidly.
But tomorrow the street festival in Veszprém (25 kms from my home town) is starting and we are going to two concerts. Quimby and Parov Stelar (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRtHYiWmsoA ....do you still remember?). So it's going to be really cool.

On Saturday Zsanett and Gergő came to pick up their things which we had brought home by car. They were here only for 3 hours but still it was a great feeling to see them again. I miss you guys a lot..I'll be honest with you, sometimes I feel really sad and helpless without you.
But I got very happy on Sunday evening because both of you sent me smssss (what's the plural of sms?). I don't know if you knew about each others' but it made my day as Sunday was the worst day I've had for a long time. I don't know what happened. After Zsani and Gergő left I really felt as if nothing changed and I'm still that person who so desperately wanted to leave her old life behind...it's a hard feeling to describe but I feel much better today. Maybe the number of chocolate I've had helped a bit:)

And I cut off my hair (not all of it) as well as a symbol of change:). It's shorter now and I think it looks great. I'll try to take photos with my cousin tomorrow during the concert so you could see my new hair and my new butterfly.
Yesterday my mom saw the other half of it on my cousin and she said she would be really angry if I had one. I didn't tell her anything but I'm really sick of this hiding. So she has to face with the fact soon that I'm not her twelve-year-old, little, innocent daughter anymore.

And as you could have predicted I need your help and advice again. I've talked with a girl who wanted to go to the Netherlands as an au-pair. I saw a link on a forum the other day, I registered but than she told me that she registered on an other page as the first one is an agency and I would "only" get 300-340 euros but they would pay for languages courses, my insurance, food etc. My parents also think that it's really not much money. So I registered on the other one as well, no agency people can contact directly. And then a canadian couple sent me an e-mail. They've got no kids, they need a housekeeper, someone to do what they can't because of their busy lifestyle. They seem really fair, they told me about their business, which is some kind of escort company..you know what they do. They said it's totally legal and follows the law and I won't be part of it. I sent you their e-mails because I really don't know what to do (again).
The better would be to go to somewhere in Europe that's what my parents also say, and the best in the netherlands as my brother will be there in case something's not right and maybe I could look for other jobs in Amsterdam as a waitress or something to earn more money. Two dutch families already tried to contact me but they have 3 and 4 children. And you know me...I love kids, could play with one or maybe two, but I'm not sure if I could handle 3 children under the age of 10. Now my heart tells me that I could because I want to go so much and earn some money for the university. Because now it's 80% that I have to intermit (?) in university...you know another gap year.

But now if this canadian job is what they say is than it would be a one-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I've already looking for people in Vancouver so I can contact with them if anything goes wrong. But I really don't know.
After reading the e-mail..what do you guy think? Should I do it? Of course I need to know much more about them before I go but if you have some comments, please tell me your opinions.

XOXO :)
Mira